Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Why Don't We Talk About Two Under Two?

I'll give it to ya straight:
Having two babies under two years old was not part of the plan.
My first (Ivan) was only 9 months old when I found out that I was pregnant with Ezra. The day I found out, I remember having a full blown panic attack. And crying. There was lots of crying.

It isn't that I didn't want more kids. At least one more baby was in our future, but I was thinking a little bit farther into the future.
A lot of my anxiety stemmed from the fact that I wasn't thinking about what Ivan would be like 9 months from then. I imagined 9 month old Ivan, and a newborn, and that was scary.

The months leading up to Ezra's birth, I scoured the internet for advice on raising two babies under two years old. Can you guess what I found?
Close to nothing.

I could spend all day wading through articles and forums about first time moms, surviving multiples, ect.
The few articles I did find really only told me one thing: You're doomed.

So I spent most of my pregnancy mentally preparing myself for this to be the absolute hardest thing I would ever endure in my entire life.
As you can imagine, that doesn't make for a very peaceful pregnancy.
But, now Ezra is here, and nearly 3 weeks old already. Man that goes fast. And I wanted to be the one to step out of the darkness and shed some light on the world of two babies under two.

First of all, you are NOT doomed. It isn't easy by any stretch of the imagination, but this has been a lot easier than I expected.  Ezra has already started to fall into Ivan's routine, and it's making the transition pretty smooth.

Second, you will never know how baby #1 will react until #2 shows up. I was so positive that Ivan would be very jealous. I also thought he might want to try breastfeeding again when he saw little brother doing it. Man, was I wrong. Ivan is a fantastic, helpful big brother (with no interest in nursing anymore)

Thirdly, any anxiety, or even possible resentment, that you are having about a second pregnancy so soon will fade away when the baby shows up. Well, I guess I can't say that with 100% certainty, but it was try for me. I spent a lot of the pregnancy being anxious about the upcoming change, and there was a lot of hurt thinking about how Ivan would no longer be my "baby." But the bonding process seemed a lot smoother this time around, and all those feelings went away quickly after meeting Ezra.

I may be missing some points I wanted to mention. Both babies are asleep and I should be too, but I felt it was important to (hopefully) but to rest some of the fears that others might be struggling with through their journey to two under two.
Just remember that you're a lot stronger than you will ever give yourself credit for, and these days turn into years much, much too quickly.


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